The Sunshine Space: Spring.

Monday, April 8, 2013

Spring.

Around these parts, the sun is starting to shine, literally and figuratively. Spring is just around the corner and the light and hope of a new season is definitely energizing me.

I feel like I've been in a bit of a dark place lately; I've felt sad and somewhat lost over the past few months. Don't get me wrong- this baby has brought all kinds of joys and smiles to our home. . . but the addition of a baby to a family (I think, especially a first baby) changes things. It's hard to make time for myself and the things that fuel me- crafting, reading good books, spending alone time with friends. So much of my time is spent taking care of Tenley and worrying about Tenley and wanting to do what's best for Tenley. When JD and I do get free time, we often spend it mindlessly flipping through the TV channels or browsing Facebook. BUT! Things are going to be different. After having the last two weekends to ponder and reflect on my life, I have found new motivation and strength (thank goodness for Easter and General Conference). I want to do better and be better- as a wife, a mother, an employee, a friend, a sister, a daughter, and especially as a child of God.

I am going to stop listening to the voice of the adversary as he whispers to me I'm not good enough. I often feel discouraged from giving any effort in any thing because of that little voice:

You are never going to have a body like that, so stop exercising. You are never going to inspire people like that, so stop creating. You are never going to know the scriptures like that, so stop studying. You are never going to have a house like that, so stop saving. Etc. Etc.

So I listen! And I give up before I've even tried! Well, Mr. Satan Man, there's a new girl in town. . . a girl who is going to fill her life so full of light there won't be any room for your darkness. Here's to a new season. A season of improving. A season of creating. A season of learning. A season of trying. A season of hoping.